This was unexpected and profound to me- something that I would have expected to happen in my dreams maybe- but even still not like this. I was doing this thing I do when I dont sleep, or when I am desperately longing for God, or when I miss my deeper self, or when I know I need to face reality- which is hard because a little fantasy disguised as hope can carry me a long way. So I was doing my meditation-quiet time-stretching-praying and talking with God- deep breathing-interpretive/intuitive movement thing that I do, and I felt defeated with what I was praying/thinking/feeling, I even was feeling like a complete fool, and the tears started to roll.
I just laid back, and said God I want to Feel you, and I want what you want for me.
I was playing a deep meditation sound track on spotify, and this beautiful song started playing : ( i dont think this link works, so in spotify, search deep meditation and the album is called deep meditation 50, and within that playlist it is called fulfillment by meditation music zone. listen while reading this for the full secondary experience. ; )
Weirdly, I just laid there breathing in bed, until a vision started forming, it was very dark and I was outside, like I knew I was in bed but I was in nature in a wide open space, just breathing, still, looking up at the night sky, the heavens, the stars, so beautiful. I saw my soul rising up out of me. It was so beautiful. I’m crying just thinking of it. The only way I can think to describe it is that it had movements similar to a feather, a cloud, water and fire, all in one. It had colors of pink purple and bluish colors sort of morphing and flickering together, it was mostly a pink purple color. It just started to float upwards, it kind of had movements like a feather that is falling from the sky, like that except upwards, like falling upwards in the wind, but also like it was burning, and like it was swimming and dancing.
It was like an out of body experience where I was watching and following my soul. She…. swam and danced in the sky, back and forth, slowly and casually, almost playfully, like a butterfly. She was swimming like side to side, but also floating at times, as if she was swimming but then took breaks to float and she swayed back and forth but always going upwards at the same time.
She twirled and swirled, she was flying, dancing, swimming, swaying… Ascending.
in the distance i saw another soul.
It was blue. HE was blue. different shades of flickering, floating, blue.
I had been crying and praying about something prior to this, about something that has been affecting me deeply in a way I never imagined, and this whole vision seemed to be connected to all of that.
He was also swaying back and forth, swirling, swimming, floating, falling upwards and enjoying the journey in peaceful serenity.
I watched as she and he seemed to notice and acknowledge each other in a way I cant really describe with words.
They slowed down a bit, they were still ascending at the same speed but as they became aware of each other, they had less movements, in awe of each other, peaceful and blissful.
They seemed to be overcome with joy and began to swirl and swim and jump and fly and dip back and forth in complete and pure ecstasy.
They stayed at a very far distance from each other, but they… were attached in some way that wasnt visible. It was like they were invisibly attached and drawn to each other- Like when you put the like poles of magnets together and they repel each other, kind of like that energy you can feel, but instead of repelling it was like they were magnetized but kept their distance locked at a certain point but the magnetic force was still palpable. The energy that couldnt be seen, was thick.
Their speed of motion stayed similar but they began to primarily focus upwards. Beautiful, dark skies with gorgeous stars and two beautiful spirits ascending.
To make a random comparison, it reminds me of when me and Nugget lived with a roommates dog, (Dilly i still miss you) and on a walk in the snow, Nugget and Dilly who are similarly sized, were walking side by side, and as we sped up to a run, at first they were each running at their own pace, but very quickly as we ran they got into the exact same speed and pace, legs moving perfectly timed in sync together, and even the sides of their bodies joined together, they became one unit prancing forward with the exact same energy, excitement, and movement and this all happened in a matter of seconds. A beautiful moment I will never let go of.
In my vision it was just like this except instead of the sides of the bodies touching, their huge fields of energy that I could not see but knew were there, I could feel them, their energies met and made contact when they acknowledged eachother, and the energies were connected and joined into a solid, focused unit.
They did not need to come towards each other, they stayed on exactly the path they were already on, as their energies met.
The ascended upwards focused vertically, swimming, swimming, flying, like if you could fly upwards the same way you would swim forwards… I cant explain it because they didnt have bodies, they werent people they were spirits but its like I could understand soul movements, despite them not having arms? dunno how to explain most of this
The mutual ascension continued and they went through different levels of sky. In the beginning it was a completely clear sky but they went through levels of different types of clouds, galaxy type levels, and their speed continued to increase as they ascended faster and faster but still in like a peaceful, serene, blissful way.
They were rapidly ascending and I felt so much joy and momentum when suddenly the song ended and for some reason my eyes shot open and I felt like I should write this down….
Dunno if this makes any sense but it was profound to me, and I wish so much i could attach accurate pictures and videos to this from my mind, but there simply arent any and I havent the skills to create any. I know I will definitely channel this into some art though.
I just recently finished up some art I made to donate to a fundraiser for Puerto Rico and unlike my usual collections where I tend to get all my emotions out on the canvas, wood, whatever and then then spend months and years finishing them up, if ever, this last collection was done start to finish in a few days, and it was so therapeutic for me to get the emotions out, to pour my soul onto the canvas in certain ways and then finish them completely, and let them go.
I wanna chase that vibe and continue in my life with that momentum and success.
I hope this was an interesting read for whoever this was meant for, and Im honestly a bit shook right now because Im such a spiritual person and the depths I go to in my heart and mind blow me away- but I still never, never thought of what a soul would look like, what would it move like, and I never had a vision in my mind of “ascension” like that. these things were words and concepts that somehow didnt need an image but now I have them and experiencing that firsthand that way was just…. wild and beautiful and very joyous. I feel blessed like I have seen something I never knew I could see or that I comprehended something completely out of my normal comprehension.
Im in awe of how everything looked and moved and… felt.. and .. was.
I know i will need to sleep soon I am exhausted and do not to derail my entire life, but I do wish I could go paint right now. More than that I want to go back to the vision and see more. They were going through clouds, space, galaxies, and I just knew they were on a similar path, their own independent and individual journeys, that became a mutual journey, but still separate, and they were rapidly ascending to heaven how wonderful.
Maybe in my dreams…
also- that song? fulfillment? fulfillment indeed.
hope everyone has a blessed rest of your week. ❤️S